Hello and welcome ladydove. Thanks so much for posting. I'm so sorry about all the pain you're going through, and I'm glad that you're reaching out. I hope you'll find some comfort here in the forums. Not wanting to sound rude, but your guy sounds like a real jerk. I pray that you realize on some level that you are deserving of better than his treatment of you as described, because you are. (Of course nothing is completely simple and one-sided, but I'm just going by your words.) Depression can be such a horrible, complicated thing to deal with, there is no room for people in our lives who are not emotionally healthy themselves and whether that is their intention or not, just add pain to whatever you are already dealing with. And btw, this subject strikes very close to my heart, as a couple of months ago my closest friend in the world (or so I thought, anyway), ended our friendship completely because she just couldn't deal with my depression. We all need and deserve help at times from caring people out there who are there to help, so I'm wondering if you have a doctor and ~or therapist who are there to support you and guide you back to a better place. If not I hope you will perhaps think about this. I hope you will keep posting whenever you wish, and we'll be here to listen.....and share back. Many warm wishes.....