Hi Pegs,

Its nice to meet a fellow Brit on here as it seems that although there are a great deal of similarities with the US there is a great divide I guess because the systems are soo completely different.

I am on a waiting list for Psychology, my Psychiatist escalated it for me so i am at the top of the list but they are still unable to confirm if it will be weeks or months before they will see me despite escalations by my GP, the Pain Clinic, my old Psychotherapist and the Psychiatrist it really is a joke.

I have recently been actively attempting suicide but then surely that means I need them. But according to the head doc they will not been keen if I am so low and may refuse to treat me, does this mean I have to lie to them in order to be seen??? I have been waiting a year and a half since referral to psychology but psychotherapy ended in Jan. It feels that becasue I am an itellegent, decent member of society not a dirty violent criminal, alcho or druggie apart from weed they are happy to leave me to suffer.

One of my early abusers (my cuz) got sent to prision for a drug related crime got loads of therapy and qualifications and now he is out has a whole bright future ahead that was not there for him before prision. I finished school, went to uni, got a good job and then fell apart after being rapped again but I am not entitiled to help at all.... How is this system fair??????

The crisis team who kept refusing to take me on because they siad because I am dealing with childhood abuse their short term service would not help have now finsally agreed to attempt to look after me and are also talking about referring me to DBT but how long is a piece of string so the only help I have at the moment is the hospital. This is why I am looking for a way to manage them....

The crisis team are a head ache, they are lazy, disallusioned, uninterested and I am desperate to complain about them but I keep getting thrown back to them so I am scared to complain because they are rubbish at the moment and when I point out how bad they are they lable me as a multiple complainer but honestly they would all be sacked if they got a job at the bank I use to work at. How bad will they be if I create a problem for them by complaining???

When this is over I plan to take this further but at the moment I am too emotional and would not make an effective job of complaining.. have you ever contacted PALS what was your experienced???

I am terrified I can't cope with living let alone all that comes this this sort of action but I am really getting desperate that no one is listening to me or even trying to help and whilst they are so slow and lazy I have lost my life, job and friends... why are they so slow!!!!!!