That's such a big step you took the other day soup ... a tentative, delicate step that ... makes sense to want to protect that and to maybe take some time before looking at it more in therapy. I've found sometimes that when I raise things that are precious or important to me, the T can say something that undoes that delicate balance and has me running in the other direction again so maybe there is some kind of concern about that happening also?

I'm sorry you have this struggle but ... from a horribly selfish point of view, it also helps me to learn others do; I thought I was alone in the whole not liking my inner child or wanting to hug her etc. So often I read of people who seem to do this, and it is so alien to my experience.