i cried at the thought-- it is a good thing, it means that I don't want to do it--- i need to re-asset some things I think in my head (i have been feeling just bad, wont go all into it)--

Good things so far today-- I looked at a picture that my S/O took of him in one of my newly made hats.. he said he was a french man, and this morning he put on the more beret one and we joked around about him being a revolutionary man, this of course after I flipped out a little and got extremely down --but it all made me smile ... I also made sure today to pull up a chair for my cat to sit by my side as I am here on the computer== guess what, he is here beside me lol... He's been fussy here lately with sitting on the lap and me typing or drawing on the computer, but he seems to like this idea of chair beside me..

coffee-- i know they say stop the coffee and cigs in these times, but the coffee made me feel better- the taste and the smell of it..