I'm so sorry, you're hurting so much. But no matter how much you're hurting, you can't leave your kids. You need to let them help to bring you to happiness. You can't let their father take them. THEY LOVE YOU. They're going to be there for you. And, no...he wasn't right for saying that you'll go to hell for that. You did what you needed to do. And, I know that sometimes it feels like everything sucks, and nothing is going right. But you need to hold on and keep trying. No matter how much you're hurting, you need to think about your children. Think about how much it would hurt them if you were gone. IT WOULD KILL THEM. You need to tell yourself that things will get better. And things WILL get better, I promise you. Please feel better?