I have been diagnosed bipolar since I was 14. I am 22 now and still have not come to terms with my diagnoses so I am not taking my meds like I should. Its not like I don't have the reasons to take them. I have an ex who I want back and he will only even think of giving me a chance again when I am on my meds everyday. If you knew how I am when I am not medicated then you would understand. I love this ex a lot but he wants me on meds for six months before he will even consider dating me again. I get on them for a week start to get stable and I see the change and I am like I don't need them thinking I am normal by my own doing not seeing that its the meds causing me to be normal ok I should more say that I am myself. I am the girl that my ex fell in love with. It upsets him when I get off of them because than the girl he fell in love with leaves and a monster returns in her place. I want to get on them for six months but I want to be on them for longer. How do I come terms with my diagnoses and then get on my meds everyday. I want the girl my ex fell in love with back. I am a lot easier to deal with when I am medicated. I turn into a complete ***** when I am not medicated.