((KUREHA))
It sounds like as I read this that you had a bad day-- and may I say- don't we all?

Hope you are feeling better though--

pfft... feeling of being hated--
I get that from time to time ... not sure if this is helpful at all but -- but if you are like me---
But for me i realize it is usually something with in myself to be honest-- Struggling with some things, then I hate that part of me that struggles with the crap or I don't feel like I am being supported---- then I feel like, well everyone else hates me too huh? I can pick myself apart pretty well- better than my enemies then I can go into a whirlwind of ideas from there that are just in my head... Helpful tip for me on that is to try as best as I can, to crawl out of my head and see some good things about me, outside in the world as well, in others, realize that others too are struggling and i have gotten so much support in the past from fellow members... and to remind myself- Hate is a strong word-- hate goes hand in hand with racism sadly- and I will not say it is not out there, but ya know it is not every where.
I am not sure if that is just babbling Beauflow or if that is helpful at all--

But i do hope you are feeling better.

Also- for Some of us (or at least me dunno I may be in my own boat here) but do get stuck at times in our own little worlds and don't go off into to territories of the unknown to us..
I.e. for example- I don't go much into ADD or OCD or some other forums due to, well-- I am not sure if I would have much advice there to be helpful to others-- ever now and then again I may if I feel perky enough to..
and getting stuck into my own little world aka problems of my own- don't want to go to other threads even into PTSD right now that much due to struggles. Basically stick with the general thread (usually happier or non-really triggering things for me) and games and what I already started.....

Be well and hope you are feeling better.