There are meds out there that don't cause all those side effects. I'm living with a few SE, but I can stand them because I'm stable. I told my doc I wouldn't take anything that would make me gain weight and he helped adjust them.

The feeling a bit dull and apathetic is the only one I struggle with and seem to be getting able to overcome it by sheer wiill.

Guess what I'm saying is, make your doc work WITH you and not just make decisions for you.