Hello, do not be ashamed of going back to your maladaptive coping mechanism, remind yourself that your are hurting and what your doing is one way of releasing this. To go 5 months is fantastic and you should give yourself a pat on the back for this. Don't quit quitting, you are strong and brave there will come a day when you realise that you have learned another way to cope but this is the only way you know how at the moment.

Have you ever looked at alternative ways of coping?

When things have calmed down and feel comfortable looked up different ways of dealing with the pain when it comes again and before you grab the razor try working your way down the list to see if you can survive the urge. I wish you all the best you are a ray of hope that changes can be made. I regret cutting when I was a child because I still carry the scares with me today as a 30 year old and they are a constant reminder of the hurt. I hope you have not been too badly effected by this. I over came it the same way as you, slowly, relapse and try again I did not even realise that it was no longer the first thing I thought of doing when I was hurting it ended and that day will come for you too!!!!