Hey everyone, i have been gone for awhile so i thought i would update everyone. I was in the hospital for inpatient treatment at the end of june, i stayed for 8 days. My therapist had sent me because of increased suicidal thoughts and increased self harm. It did help, i was much more stable after i got out. I had been put on seroquel(a mood stabilizer) and that helps a lot. I was also told i had traits of borderline personality disorder, which makes a lot of sense!

Then on July 16th i had open heart surgery. I was in the hospital for 4 days, the first 3 days i can barely remember. I was doing really well for awhile with my depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts, and my anorexia but im once again slipping down, the self harm and restricting are increasing as is the suicidal thoughts. I am doing intensive outpatient treatment right now(4hrs a day, 5 days a week) so hopefully that starts stabilizing some of my depression, i am also starting eating disorder treatment next week and possibly starting DBT.

So yeah! Thats about everything, i am very tired still but getting a bit better every day.