I've been dealing with this for so long.
Even before I was abused etc, even as a small kid I remember having the same intusive thoughts as I do now, why is that?

What causes them, does anyone know? Other then Trauma?
As far as I know I was never traumatized as a child, bullied perhaps, but at a young age I knew what r@pe etc was.

Wtf is wrong with me?
And I alone here?

Does it ever go away?
It happens daily with me, there is never a day or night that goes buy that I don't think of someone trying to break in and hurting me etc. Not one day.