I do not think I am hypo. I do very tedious, detail-oriented work which is not compatible with hypo, I think. Think elaborate Excel spreadsheets - nothing hypo about Excel, to me...
Everyone smiles at me. With the disappointing exception of friends who did not email a thank-you note following a dinner (but as has been explained to me, this is totally normal), everyone is treating me super-nicely in superficial, non-intimate relationships. People open doors for me, everyone at work says hi, even people I barely know. Same in public transit. I left home in the morning the other day and a construction worker wished me a good day and asked how I was doing. This is pretty much like in the days of my youth, but back then it was explainable by my very good looks (plus living in a country where men are less inhibited than in the States about showing their interest), which since then have faded away, so now it is clearly NOT the looks, it is something else. "Positive energy" as my former p-doc put it? It is like something beams from me which clearly did not before. It is not even that I always have my own smile on, even though I do have a very authentic smile (and cannot fake it when anxious or depressed). But in general I have made a conscious decision to be nice to people and they clearly reciprocate, in superficial, non-intimate relationships.
I swear they all do objectively smile at me, it is not in my head. They objectively open doors, I am not inventing it. I do not think I am hypo, I think it is reality.
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