....far out what a stupid long title but there it is!

funny thing about this dis-order I notice there is this reflex deliberate memory loss...

I DON"T WANT TO BE THIS VULNERABLE TOMORROW!

dumbasss I go to sleep expecting to wake up if I get to sleep that is ....

I expect it to all be over every day of my life....

and nuthin' has happened



I wake up and I haf' to go thru it all again....control myself....