I don't even know. I feel so normal right now its crazy lol. I haven't felt this calm in, well, forever lol. I can't put that all on pills tho right? Couldn't it be the storm is finally calming, maybe because it is summer and the sun is shining and all that other happy-go-lucky ********? Or maybe after my last lil hypo-eff-everyone I see I am in remission of the chaos. The sky isn't bluer now but it sure as f*&k is blue and I can appreciate that now. I would hate to say that a tiny pill smaller than my pinky nail is the reason I feel ok now.

Cocobananas the one symptom that was really of concern to me (who cares what's concerning to others since they aren't me and don't need to live my life...whoa lol) would be the nonstop thinking, being on edge and always trying to be one step ahead of everyone, thing, place, moon, spoon, racooon!!!!!! Like when you are stuck in your head so bad that any interuption feels like someone just slammed a sledge hammer through the brick wall with an extra layer of concrete up. Just wanting to be left alone so you can complete or accomplish?? something that already has been completed or accomplished but you think there may be that one tiny little link that will win it all and give you the answers you've been looking for all along...whoa Im exhausted even just explaining it lol.

Anyways Im not doing that anymore