Felt the need for protein....so I made a bacon wrapped tenderloin & a salad....it's too hot to feel like eating....just want cold water & I'm feeling too stressed to eat more than a few bites at a time.....I just keep the food next to me & eat a few bites throughout the day until it's gone.......but it doesn't taste like my head said it would......could be because I am also so exhausted.....my whole self feels like it's falling apart & I'm trying to fight it & keep the healthy going...DBT is always such a good reminder & help.....but I'm finding that in the huge things....it's not that easy to force myself to do the DBT.....interesting because it's supposed to work for everything......times like this are when extra support & a lot of prayer are needed.

I realized an interesting feeling today....I'm sure it's the major anxiety.....but I want the things I'm doing to be done before I start them because even though I need to do the things, I really don't feel like it & eating is the same thing