I was about to end my relationship with D. but my former teacher, who knows him, talked me out of such drastic steps. So I just said that I would not be able to travel the country with him, because I do not want to jeopardize my job by taking so many days off, but I will be pleased to show him Northern California taking just a couple days off. At first he replied with "that is a shame, but of course the job is the most important thing". In an hour though he wrote that it would be no fun to travel the country without me, even though he really wants to see America (we were going to go to Wyoming and Georgia and then Boston) but traveling would be boring without me, so he is changing his plans for a vacation and he will do Paris where he has friends and then rent an apartment in the South of France for a week - it is closer and more convenient for him than the States. And he will postpone his visit to the States for a year. So I am nothing but a fun travel companion to him, you see. And I was so much looking forward to seeing him. I was preparing menus in my head and thinking of how well I will treat him in bed, you see. I do not sleep around - sex is a serious thing for me, my bp hypersexuality has expressed itself mostly in very intense sex with the same partner or in *almost* crossing the line to being unfaithful but not quite - I do not do casual sex, it was a serious thing for me to want to sleep with him, and he treats me like a nice thing to have around. Nice but disposable. That's where I am at. But I am getting lots of support and guidance from my former teacher, so I am fine.

Many thanks for asking!