ii can always go on and on and then also remember things or realize things someone i saw liked me and it went all wrong and plus even with everything that happened before it went crazy and i had no choice but to go into isolation is that it was not even comprehending to me that anything could ever occur or even if people tried that i had no way of even a chance in my mind for anything to be resolved or for things to be ok and for all the people that just ended up not being around and crap like i'll never know what one person is up to or someone else says crap that involves them about someone who i was never ever interested in or even did anything to state they liked me which means it probably was a bunch of crap and things may have been pulled today and if it invovles someone that i do not know why i was interested in and maybe they disappeared anyone even having any direction of they are something or they even did things that other people reacted to me about they have problems you side with them either way if you say i do or do not have an illness or they made you feel like you were something as far as an authority figure they have problems you side with them like i'll never find out what they are up to just like i never found out what it was that i could do anything i want to someone that if they did not admit there conduct as far as what they did that would cause a parent to say that but no one ever telling me anything just like nobody did anything that caused a visit to my house so whatever catch is i know that crap goes from one state to another and back to the one state i've held on to crap from another for almost 10 years nobody gave a crap except for catch and people that falsely made them feel like an authority and have me get to here by years of something that was not even close to life some a whole town that destroys a person years even after i left that did not give a crap what the real story was they are nothing more that someone who holds on to something that if they ever let go they would have nothing do to their conduct losing something physical was not enough you better leave me alone meant nothing to them unless it was the one who must have lied either that or nothing was ever with that person or the two other people connect to that no matter what nothing matters because i was never confronted revenge and humiliation is the only thing they wanted i would have been fine at one time just being single and exiting in a not so great fashion even with the paranoia relationship but if anything gets near me nobody who even did anything related to me that kept this **** going goes away free it was known that things were not right as far as me if someone tells me i can do anything i want they are a parent not from another then it is and has been well know from that area to the place i have held on to things from almost 10 years and had no clue about anything i was just a person who tried crap with someone who i though liked me and it was the worst experience of my life that will never end and anyone who had a brain would know why instead of just pretending or having people make you feel secure or an idiot whichever if you can't look at real ages and what everyone else does something is wrong with you nobody ever did anything for you and never will i sure do not want to