Blue,
I ask what to tell my pdoc when I see him. That was a whole session was spent on talking about why I don't like them. I know I have to take them but that's hard to do. Turns out she doesn't feel I'm stable, MUCH more stable, but not stable. We can't really start therapy until I'm stable but I'm giving her as much info as I can until than.

There's got to be something that can give you less side effects but stability. There are drugs that I felt really helped but my Pdoc wont prescribe me. You really need to discuss it with your T if you have one. T can help you sort out what you need to say to pdoc to be heard better. I think you need to find a new pdoc because you can't be honest with her.

Hamster-bamster that's just messed up.