I have had such a bad week, lots of stuff going on that I have found really difficult.

I was all over the place with my feelings, distraught, angry, numb, but then I suddenly realised something that T has been trying to get me to understand and that was that my emotions were not about the things that were happening, but because my life wasn't how I wanted it to be. It was that, that I was angry and sad about.

I suddenly understood that life is how it is, sometimes it it easy to be with, sometimes difficult - sometimes it is not how we want it to be and that is what I must focus on. Not being angry with everyone else for making my life difficult, but realising this is about my reaction to it and moving towards acceptance.

It feels a little odd in my head, like I still want to blame everyone else for ruining my life and making me feel like I do - but I see now that thinking in that way does not help me move forward, but accepting my emotions as "my stuff" is what will eventually lead me to being more peaceful.

Thank-you T