Good morning Whimsygirl,

How are you, I hope your having a good weekend.
Thank for your kind words and support it means a lot to know there is someone I can talk to. If you dont mind me asking why are you on here if its okay with you to share some of your story also.

The Wedding went fine I made a big effort for my family and picked mum as I didnt want to drink I even stayed a bit later than usual. My cousin and her partner looked beautiful and so happy I was really pleased for them .I pushed myself to be the one to say hello first to my relations and made small talk I really struggled with the small talk im pleased I tried and then I say to myself I didnt make a big enough effort. It felt as if I retracted back into my shell and sat with my immediate family and managed to get through the night with them. At one point I was the only one sitting at the table and I never even noticed one of my sisters came over and asked me to dance as my family were all up there I thought I can do it, got to the dance floor and I froze and said sorry I couldnt and went back to the table. Walking back to that table I felt really bad, I feel so withdrawn from everyone and everything there was a time were I was the life and soul and would have been the first person up on that dancefloor. I think mum knows I am struggling and came over and asked me to take her home I was so glad she did.

Im going to phone the counsellor again tomorrow to follow up that appointment I need to keep trying.

You have a good day Whimsygirl and Take Care