Rainbow, yes, I am talking to you. I am sorry if I was too blunt. Having read your posts in the past and now, it just seems as though you are stuck waiting for your therapist to fill your needs. I don't believe it will happen that way. It appears that you are frustrated and that you have repeated this several times with several therapists. It's up to you if you want to accept the continued struggle to get your needs met from your therapist or if you want to risk fixing it from within.