((((((( HUGS ))))))) ~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ((((((( HUGS )))))))
What YOU are feeling and going through is normal for any one that has lost a loved one..... I know for I lost my only daughter nine years ago (and) with that I can tell you that every ones grieving process is different..... but all in all once you start to grieve you should be able to resume a fairly normal life with six months to a year - if you cannot then you will need to seek professional help in getting over this difficult hump in your life.
BTW - it took my entire family four complete years to learn to fully live once more..... now we are enjoying again and happiness is ours.
LoVe,
Rhapsody -