((((Sanada)))) i am sorry you are hurting I understand and can relate. I echo Lee ... these "anniversaries" are painful. Do you have a little something special that you do on these days? (for instance, I light a remembrance candle and say a teeny prayer. )

I also planted a little garden the year my F passed away...I tend to it and give it lots of tlc.

Hugs to you, Rose