My dad is the only reason I hesitate to end this. When he was younger, one of his brothers shot himself. Few months back, his brother was found shot in the head. And my grandmother.. She was on life support, but they just took her off. He had to travel to Missouri, hopes of seeing her one last time. Mission accomplished, kind of. I just know, whether he really cares or not, it would kill him to.lose me. So now I'm ****ed.