please do seek help. it will help you to talk to someone who is objective and will listen to you. then you can get some of it out.

and it's okay to cry and let your kids and husband see you grieve. holding it in will only cause you to feel worse later.

sometimes our families really do let us down.and our hurt can come out as anger. that's normal. try to let that go and work on taking care of yourself and your family. the others will either be there or not. you can't change them. that is a given. we can't change another, but we can change how we respond to their actions. good luck, xoxoxo pat