Since you talk about seeing how things go over the next few months, then does that mean that they are not about to push you out the door (at work.) If so, then that sounds like you must be doing a decent enough job to be allowed to stay. All the same, not being sacked isn't the same as being truly valued and no job feels good when that is missing. If it seems that you are never going to be treated as a "truly valued" employee, then I would advise that you look at finding another work opportunity. Maybe just for a future option.

I totally endorse what you say about needing "continuity." In fact, I think it is a sign of maturity that you wish to maximize that in your circumstances. So many make the mistake of thinking that the grass is always greener elsewhere, and they flee an uncomfortable situation. (I've done that and regretted it.) I give you credit for having the strength to grapple with this place where you are subject to so much negativity.

At the same time, we can sometimes linger too long in what is not a good fit. I would say continue to not be in a hurry to leave, but do try and discover options. Having your flat connected to this job is a huge consideration. In the long run though, it might be an unhealthy arrangement because it keeps your eggs (real important ones) in one basket. Could that be a factor in what sounds to me like some bullying that you are getting . . . that they know how much you have to lose by losing this job, so they can really make you squirm by keeping you in a state of feeling threatened? I think that is very cruel.

It's so much to decide and not easy, when so much is at stake. Do any co-workers or friends give you any positive feedback? I hope so. At least, it seems the increased med is proving helpful. I'm glad about that. I hope you have a healthcare provider or counselor that you can talk things out with. (((HUGS)))