i found out that the specialist had a really bad heart attack. i haven't heard back whether or not he could find someone to take him in quicker. this really is frustrating and i feel so sorry for the doctor.

i am going to be able to make it to Oklahoma tomorrow. will stay with Colleen. my granddaughter, aged 7, is going with me.

i wish phone would ring. or email would come. from WV.

more "positive news" is that i applied for a job with the school system today and the background check is very thorough. i was extremely curious about it. they call ALL of your references and check backwards through your driving records, etc. since i don't have a criminal record, that i know of
, that will be fine.

it took most of the day to finish the psychological testing. i am very impressed because the test directly related to children, anger, frustration, impatience, safety, etc. AND i can walk to the job. i hope i haven't already typed this somewhere. i am so tired and wrung out that my mind seems to be nowhere nearby.

if i worked in Austin, psych hospital, the extra pay would be pretty much eaten up by gasoline ($3.25) and wear on my truck. i thought long and hard and decided to try this. plus, the commute would take 35 minutes in. so, i think i'm making my life easier, instead of harder...like i usually do. it also occurred to me that working at the school will help me integrate myself into the community in a more solid fashion. instead of hit and run meetings with people here and there. and i do want a place in the community.(i'm sure that there are "more" here than just me.... )