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Originally Posted by Chopin99
I've been intentionally avoiding this thread, but now I must address it. This emotional hunger emanates from what the author called "Original Loss". I have described it as "the darkness within". T keeps telling me that many of the needs from childhood will never be met or can only be met through God (or any other higher power of your choice). However, I do search for others (including T, rainbow, much like you  ) to try to fill the void.
I'm in chapter 11 and it's in this chapter about healing that I am actually the most triggered. It seems impossible. Okay, I have to stop thinking about it now. |
This is what i find hardest to accept Chopin, that no amount of love or attention for anyone can replace what was lost in childhood. To think that i might never get rid of that emotional hunger, that dreaded dark feeling of total loss.... well it's too overwhelming to contemplate. In hindsight, i think i did start therapy looking for a parental figure to fill in what was missing or help me to not feel that way anymore but since reading more on the subject it seems that it can't be filled in adulthood, or rather it can only be lessened thru self acceptance and developing your own inner mother. Not sure i'm ready to accept that yet...
