Perna: I'll try to change my reactions when I'll catch myself checking it too often. Till now I was always angry of me. And on the beginning I'm still angry. Because I checked sth again. And I promised to me I wont anymore. I try to convice myself that everythink is fine and I don't have any reason to worry.

I see right now more and more reasons, why this progress is slow. My biggest problem is probably that I can't accept so fast that this progress is slow. It's a bit like a struggle in me between my heart and my mind...