I don't know if I'm finally coming out of a very long (3+ months) depression, if I'm just numb, apathy, if this is stable, if it's because I don't want to add anti-depressant or because my eating disorder is in full start up mode (and I'm comfortable with that). My husband has no idea because all of them make me look like I'm okay. I'm still having vague SU thoughts but they are less then deadly and sleeping 10+ hours. I don't want to be stuck like this forever.