Weird connection feelings are back. I wear ear plugs at church to control the noise and feel less overwhelmed by all the sounds around me. Today I had a profound sense of knowing what people all around me were thinking and feeling. I felt a powerful urge to get up and hug everybody during the service, but I stayed frozen to my seat because I also felt other strange feelings of anger and hatred coming from them. I feel like a crab without a shell - a cell without a membrane. I am other people and they are me. I love them and they hate me. It is all so terrifying and confusing.