Yeah, this girl has ruined or uncovered a rock on my perception of relationships and people I am attracted too. I wish we could have stayed friends, it was a bad breakup. I miss her and she hurt me so bad, its a double edge sword, unlike any experience I ever had. I cannot imagine how tough it has been for you...5 years in gloom, and uncertainty, no WOW factor to attract you. Please share more, prehaps I can help with some feedback or I can be one of those people you can talk to.