My exerience has been that the memorys just come if I want them or not in differents ways, senses, body recalls etc... it does not always make sense or connect right away. By being in a place that it does not feel possible at the moment use this time to nurture yourself, build your strength ready for when and if they come to you. I find it an annoying phrase but it is true that the path to recovery is a journey how this is travelled the twists, turns, blockages and speed will be individual to you. Take care as you go x