If your mom won't get you the help you need, you need to get it yourself. Talk to a teacher? Call your doctor, call around to look for counseling or therapy. And, sometimes the family does understand, even if they don't act like it. It's just hard for them to accept, and they don't know what to do. And don't say that you 'can't' stop. Because you can. You just need the right support. And if you're not with the 'asshole' anymore, it's just showing that it wasn't meant to be. (You'll find the right person for you.)And you're not living for nothing. Life is such a beautiful thing. You need to start thinking about the good things in life. But, if you need to talk, you can PM me.