Oh, those thoughts couldn't turn to reality, I'd be turned down, is what would happen. To not make a fool of myself, I must leave the past alone. But he had led me on, real bad, and that's not nice, but I had gotten hooked. Nothing ever happened physically, but emotionally, on both our parts. He chose his wife, so that's it. I loved him though, is all. And still carry those feelings, at times, other times, hate for him.

Sometimes I just feel that if I just could see him or know what's going on with him, I'd be alright.

It was a tangled mess, is what it was. Kind of a love/hate triangle, but more with four, in a way. Both couples. It was just he and I, that let it be known to each other though.