Does anyone else ever have thoughts like these?

• I'm OK.
• I'm fine.
• Today was a good day. Yesterday must not have been THAT bad. I tend to exagg
• I was silly for thinking there was something a bit off about me.
• The diagnosis must be wrong.
• People have ups and downs. I really shouldn't make such a big deal out of it.
• My family tells me, "Snap out of it." That's what I should do.

Yesterday I had a pretty good day with a friend and, after I dropped her off at her house and drove home, I was having these thoughts.

But, so much for thinking I might be normal.

I took my Abilify and sleeping pill earlier in the evening than usual, in hopes of them kicking in sooner and me finally getting some sleep. Lately, I've only been getting about 4 hours of sleep.

It didn't work too well.

I was wide awake until 4:45 a.m. This time, I didn't stay in bed trying to sleep. I got up and did some productive things around the house and also did a strange task that I've been meaning to do. I pulled all of the rhinestone stickers off the lid of my computer and glued new ones on. (Yes, I'm weird. I decorate my computer.)

Fell asleep about 5:00 a.m. and woke up today (Sunday) at 11:00 a.m.

Normal people don't stay up in the middle of the night gluing rhinestones to the lid of their computer.

Or do they?