It's been one of those days. The kind of day where you cry from frustration, you cry from anger, you cry from emotional hurt, and you cry for who knows why. The water works won't seem to turn off. All is fine for a little while and then it comes back. Watery eyes, tears, and pain. What in the world is going on with me. This happens from time to time. I'm not heard, I'm not understood, I'm hurt, no one will listen, my words get twisted to hurt me, there's no way to win. All I can do is cry and cry and when I'm done crying cry somemore. I just hope and pray no songs on the radio makes me start up again. I hope I don't see anything on t.v. that turns the flood gates to wide open. If someone asks me whats wrong, all I can do is set and cry. I can think what I want to say but I can't say it. I don't want to be touched. I don't want a hug but then again I do. I'm afraid of my own pain. I'm afraid of my own hurt. I'm lost and confused. It takes a good nights sleep to make the next day better. So I know tomorrow will be better. But I have to get to tomorrow in the meantime. I'll get there. I'll go to bed soon,cry some more, take a zanax if I can't make things settle down and tomorrow will be a new day. If not I go to the T on Tuesday. Then she can help me deal with me. Anyone out there I don't know what answer I am looking for I just want to know some one hears me I guess.