your pain is severe. i've been close, but eventually the storm blew over. it got better, not great, but better. it can get better for you. it's really just so very hard to see this where you are now. I suggest reaching out to as many people as possible. Get em' on your side, and let them bring you out of this struggle as a team effort.

excercise as much as you can and keep moving. be moving constantly. INERTIA INERTIA INERTIA. blast the music and dance around. walk swiftly around the block, to the library, to the store. keep moving. keep moving.

Read some recovery stories. they will give you hope.

Do anything that gives you any temporary relief. Anything that gives you relief is worthwhile.

Hold on. You can beat this!