I didn't post much this weekend. Had a disaster Sat morning with my horse not getting into a horse box, which partially triggered me. Spent the rest of the day on the couch sleeping. Slept in the lounge 9PM-9AM, then again 11AM-2PM and in bed by 9. Forced myself out to do some grocery shopping. Had those thoughts. Feel lonely. Been living on sedatives. Not in a happy place.
But can't expect bf to understand, don't want work or parents to know