I had 2 children 2 boys one was 22 the other 18 because of some one they knew being stupid my oldest son died. They were trying to cross a creek to get to a friends house that just lived across the street. The water was so cold that my oldest son didn't make it and my youngest son almost died too trying to save his brother. I just want to hold him and tell him I love him I want him here with me. The child is not supposed to go before the parent he had so much to live for. He was newly married and had a 5 month old daughter NOW she will never know him the way we did. Most days I don't even want to live anymore the only thing so far to keep me here is my youngest son. I MISS him so much I just don't know if I will make it through this or not. I know I haven't had much time to deal with it because he just died in January but instead of getting easier it is only getting harder every day, WHAT do I do HELP please.