Hello All,
I wanted other peoples opinions on this. I have been cutting since I was 14 thats 15 years now. It was only 2 years ago that I realized it had a name and that there many other people out there who did this. I really truly believed it was just me being well quite frankly "nutty". I watched an ER episode and realized that this had a name and it was a disorder that other people besides me engaged in so I felt less "nutty". Anyway, the reason I am writing this post is because well I wanted to get peoples opinions about their reasons behind cutting to see if mine are similiar to others. I will start by sharing why I cut. I cut when I am at my absolute wits end with anxiety, sadness, or anger. Basically when I feel like I am at the very height of my emotional state and I don't know what to do with myself. I guess this is the coping reason for my cutting. But sometimes I cut when I extremely upset with other people and I want to show them a lesson by harming myself. For instance if my husband and I get into a blow out or my parents and I get into a huge blow out my first thought is to cut but not just to cope with the situation but because in my mind its an attitude of "I'll show them". I guess like to punish them by punishing me. I feel weird saying that but its true. And lastly there are times when I feel lonely and I want attention any attention so I cut or punch walls and sprain my wrists or almost require stitches to get attention but I never tell people the truth of how I got injured. I lie and say it was some kind of "freak accident". This is my attention seeking reason for cutting. Anyone experience these reasons some, any, or all of these reasons. Would really love feedback. Thanks guys!

Jenn