The appropriate response to having problems with your meds is to talk to your pdoc, not to begin drinking heavily. Alcohol will only make things worse for you.

I know the mhc isn't very responsive. I really understand that. I had a hard time getting the mhc here to respond to me too. And I think my son's concerns were pretty much ignored when he bothered to mention them at all. That's why we're with a private provider now. I wish you had an advocate to speak up for you and to at least try to intervene.

So, you're on a dose of medication that's possibly too high or possibly not a good med for you. You're sleeping a lot and hallucinating more. You can:

1. Continue taking the meds and suffering.

2. Quit the meds cold turkey without telling anyone. ==> This will no doubt lead to disaster and more forced treatment.

3. Start drinking heavily or self-medicating in other ways. ==> This will add another layer of problems to your current difficulties.

4. Begin trying to advocate for yourself. Talk to your pdoc or your case manager or someone. Contact that group in Fort Worth that I mentioned a few weeks ago and see what they do and if they can advise you. Look for a private provider who might be more responsive to your needs.

This is your life and your body, newtus. Yours should be the lead voice in your treatment IMO. But you have to be sensible. And you have to be responsible for your actions. This on the meds, off the meds, add huge amounts of caffeine, start drinking thing isn't likely to work. It's just going to leave you perpetually off-balance and always being forced into the hands of people who will take away your power to decide for yourself.

Quit the booze. Limit the caffeine. Tell your pdoc you're sleeping too much and hallucinating more.