I have been taking a step back and looking at things lately. I have had to cuz of my GAD. I guess that's one way of dealing with it, is to step back and try and put everything in perspective.

Anyways... I was looking at my signature... four meds. Four meds! Everything has happened so fast I just can't believe everything that has happened this past year. It's surreal. I'm like a different person now too. I couldn't imagine going back to how things have been throughout my life.

Has this affected anyone else? Has anyone else been so caught up in visits with Pdoc and T and been so focused on getting stable that once that happens, or comes close to happening that they don't recognize themselves? Ugh... it's causing a lot of anxiety.

Every time I look back and think how things have been growing up and through adulthood I panic. I also don't handle "good times" well cuz I'm just waiting for past behaviors to happen. they don't, but its uncomfortable as hell. I feel like a toddler in an adults body, having to relearn everything again.

Thought I would share.