For me it's eight meds, but that includes two for high blood pressure and cholesterol, and then one for hypothyroidism. Then five for bp. I would have to get out bottles to remember names and dosages for my signature, so I don't bother.

I agree, I feel like I was a different person before meds-yes, I dealt with highs and lows, and I also self-medicated, but everything was on my terms.

I agree, too, that at times it is difficult to enjoy life because I wonder if good times are just hypomania and the crash is coming soon. With enough meds, though, I get the control of not enjoying life too much and not crashing too far. Wow, what a trade off!

Sorry my post is a downer, lands, but obviously I can relate!

Now for the positive disclaimer-It is sometimes hard to remember how terrible life really was at times in the past, but I know it was bad, so relearning life is a job, but it is a step in the positive direction.

Take care, baby steps aren't so bad as long as you are walking forward!

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