I went to the work place today. I cleaned and it went well. The manager showed me how to clean. At one point, I said to the manager. "I know I'm stupid". As I dropped the hover, I thought it stood upright. She didn't say anything after. I had to give my birth certificate, national insurance card and my bank statement. I gave the manager my birth certificate but she didn't accept it. She needed the longer version of it. I didn't even know there was a longer version of the birth certificate and apparently it has my parent's names on it too. She said I should go to the registry and I asked her "where is it?". She didn't even have a clue. She said "give it to me on Thursday". But if I want to get a longer version of my birth certificate, it would cost money and it would take more than a week to get it. Plus, I'm running out of money. You can't get a certificate within a few days. Isn't the small version of the birth certificate proof? What more do they expect? At the jobcentre, they accepted my birth certificate as proof of identification. So, yeah I'm worried. I'm worried I might not be able to get the longer version of the birth certificate. Everything is about money these days. Money for food. Money to buy identification. Money for everything. Sometimes, I want to give up. I'm fed up with feeling anxiety and stress. Now, I don't want people to leave me because I hate being left alone with my bad feelings. Should I just give up with life and try to leave life? I'm trying but there's always something that prevents me from reaching my goal in life. Today, I said to myself, I'm a retard because I can't follow some instructions. Why was I ever made? :'(