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Originally Posted by landskaperdan
I have been taking a step back and looking at things lately. I have had to cuz of my GAD. I guess that's one way of dealing with it, is to step back and try and put everything in perspective.
Anyways... I was looking at my signature... four meds. Four meds! Everything has happened so fast I just can't believe everything that has happened this past year. It's surreal. I'm like a different person now too. I couldn't imagine going back to how things have been throughout my life.
Has this affected anyone else? Has anyone else been so caught up in visits with Pdoc and T and been so focused on getting stable that once that happens, or comes close to happening that they don't recognize themselves? Ugh... it's causing a lot of anxiety.
Every time I look back and think how things have been growing up and through adulthood I panic. I also don't handle "good times" well cuz I'm just waiting for past behaviors to happen. they don't, but its uncomfortable as hell. I feel like a toddler in an adults body, having to relearn everything again.
Thought I would share.
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Hi there,
I can relate to your post. I feel like I was managing the ups and downs, well mostly downs, until my severe episode hit. Suddenly I have all of these symptoms that I didn't have before.
I feel like I am mourning the old me, one that was very capable. Now I struggle to keep the house in order, mostly because I just don't feel like doing much most of the time. I don't know how I will manage going back to work and keeping the rest of life in order.
I miss the old me and wish I could find her again.