It could be PTSD....I have it as well and what you describe certainly does sound a lot like it. I also get these 'rages', 'episodes', 'panic attacks' whatever you call it, and it usually is disturbing to me because I am not really a very aggressive person at all so when I get triggered and start getting that way......either I get very aggressive and angry and feel I could probably break things or injure someone if I deemed them a threat. Or I get more afraid of everything and have a strong urge to run or hide or somehow get away.

So yeah I can kinda relate to all that, but I don't really have much advice other than trying to get professional help(I've tried but haven't really gotten anywhere with that..not bad advice either way). Also I try to keep from putting myself under too much stress since more stress makes it worse....but sometimes I don't have much choice since other people or unexpected situations can cause stress.