{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Dave}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} Sounds to me like you need a long rest at the hospital, Hun. That's the way I was when I went in almost 2 years ago.
Stop beating yourself up. Be kind to yourself. We'll be here waiting for you when you get back.
It's not much consolation when all your friends are online, but there are those out in cyberspace that care a lot for you.
"Pain endures for the night, but joy comes in the morning." It will come for you, Dave.
<font color=blue>"Our doubts are traitors and make us lose the good we oft might win by fearing to attempt" --Shakespeare</font color=blue>
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Psalm 119:105 Thy word is a lamp unto my feet, and a light unto my path.