I'm 21 and I had only one relationship. It was like 4-5 years and we broke up because he betrayed me. I'm like totally over the whole relationship part, I don't feel sad about it or anything but I find it really really difficult to trust people. Are relationships worth all of the hurt feelings that come along with it? I know it was just one bad relationship with one person but since the break up, I keep to myself and avoid all kinds of social situations. I can count the number of times I've seen my friends this year on one hand. I just can't stand the idea of losing people so I don't go any where. I stay at home during weekends, holidays, I even prefer to be alone on my birthday. Its been like 2 years of this behavior and I really want to try and break out of it but I'm afraid but then on the other hand I don't want to die alone. I'm feeling really conflicted.