Hi Derek, have you tried copying out this and taking it with you to your Dr.? This is really intense, what you're going through, and I know how hard it can be to talk to a new Dr. about everything that's going on in your head.

Is there ANYONE you can talk to, anyone you feel safe enough with to take with you so that you don't have to feel as nervous about the impulses to do harm to yourself? At this point you need to be safe until the neuropsychologist can see you, and that should ake priority for her and you. I know you have probably heard that head injuried can cause the problems that you are having, but still, she still needs to know that you are having this amount of trouble, hon. >Try calling her, meet again and take a copy of your post with you if you don't feel you can get the words out. doesn't seem the buspirone is doing the job. Huggs and let us know what's happening.